twenty

feeling soooo old, and blessed.
there are so many people (several actually) who always with me in my ups and downs.
eventhough im cranky af, random af, weird af, and selfish af.
im sooooo thankful of that.
until i feel like i don't deserve them.

reminder

just because u dont know how people feel u can't ask them to not doing what they want.
semua yang orang lain lakukan itu selalu ada alasan.
like i know, u receive full love from both ur parents, but not everyone does.
i know u have so many friends out there which always there for u, but not everyone does.
u can't say what ever u want just because their action is bothers you.
u can't call her an attention whore just because she is hanging out with her all-boys-friends.



*maafkan ya grammarku jelek, sebenarnya aku cuman ingin berlatih menulis dengan bahasa inggris. siapatau kan aku bisa s2 di london. Aamiin...
wkwk. loveuall. this is just a simple reminder for myself.

pretending

i tought it's called pretending 

to be nice to someone you hate 

to smile to someone that hurt you 

but mom said it's called maturity.

so, it is called maturity to say i love you 

to someone you dont love? 

i hate myself the most

im short 

im fat 

im ugly 

i hate me 

setauku, laki laki itu menghormati wanita. 

setauku, laki laki itu yang maju duluan membantu. 

atau itu cuma bapakku?

11:30 pm

wait for me he said.
then he left.

pra menstruasi syndrome

pernah tidak merasa kalau kamu sendirian ?
seperti tidak ada yang sayang.
seperti tidak ada yang akan rindu kalau kamu menghilang.
seperti terasing.

kenapa sih harus menjadi orang bodoh terus
aku tuh capek aku
tau nggak